Ah, well….it’s been another long spell since I last offered up some breast-centric musings. Is anyone still out there? 🙂 I sure hope so and I hope this note finds you in good spirits and enjoying your days.
Nothing much to report, actually, as I’m not in a relationship and haven’t had any sensual nuzzlings in far too long. That might be about to change (the sensual nuzzlings part) as I’m a kitty on the prowl, but for now I’m learning a lesson about myself that is one part sad and two parts empowering.
I don’t think I’m ever going to want to be in another long-term monogamous relationship ever again.
Now, go on and giggle because I deserve that. I know how this works. You say you never want another relationship and then KA-POW somebody comes along to knock you off your feet and you’re back down the rabbit hole again. Well, that’s totally fine. Prove me wrong, Universe, I’m OK with that.
For now, though…and, yes, perhaps forever….I know that I can’t keep giving up my power and self-esteem and independence and self-love in ways that the relationships I’ve tried or been part of have done to me. I think I’m getting too old to change. I’m definitely too old to let a man minimize me, control me or make me feel unworthy. Those are the trappings of a young woman still finding her strength and self confidence. Those things have no place in the world of a grown woman in touch with her goddess side.
Oh, I know it’s not all a man’s fault that these things happen, that these tough feelings occur. I’m at fault, too. That’s part of my point, actually, that I don’t think I’m wired for it (committing myself to a man like that) and therefore I often end up becoming a less than ideal partner because I just can’t take feeling as awful as most relationships end up making me feel.
Anyway. So. How is all this relevant to this blog? Well, it means that I’m not likely going to ever find a long-term ANR partner, that’s what it means.
It means that I’ll be seeking lovers who share this fetish with me, but that they will all probably be temporary connections and eventually I’ll keep having to move on and find more. That’s totally OK, but not what was my intent when I first started sharing my thoughts and desires with you.
So if I’m someone like that….and my search for a long-term partner for ABF or ANR is coming to a close in significant ways…
…should I still be writing this blog? Does that make me a bit of a fake or failure in this fetish community? Nah, I know it doesn’t but, well…
Will I even have enough material to keep saying new things?
Hmmmm…..just pondering all that comes with whatever comes next.
I hope you’re well.
I sincerely miss you!
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